Moody Monday

Kids went back to school, and I haven't been forcing myself to sit in my 5th graders class lately. Sure enough, I get a call from the principal. Seems my son spit on a boy who is a friend. He was angry at him for imitating him in an ifeminate way. This is really bringing me down. I hurt b/c my son is hurting. He feels like an outcast at school even though he's a funny, likeable kid. He super sensitive like I am. I feel hurt, he gets angry. I don't know what to do except to love him.
My wt is down a pound today. It's still too high, but I'm eating light and healthfully. I exercised a lot yesterday eve while playing 2 softball games back to back. I plan on exercising today, but I have been painting a bathroom for 2 days now. It wears me out.
FOOD PLAN: not following one
GRATITUDE: God, friends, family, a home, a job, grace, warm weather, counselor, doc.
STEP WORK: none today or yesterday. I am doing some reading of recovery materials.
EATING DISORDER BEHAVIORS: weighing of self and food. Obsessing about the appearance of fat and cellulite on body and what ppl are seeing and thinking. Diuretic use yesterday eve b/c I felt like I was retaining water from increased sodium intake the day before. Restricing food.
CODEPENDENCY; working on bathroom w/spouse. He is impatient, I feel inept. I feel small and insignificant.
Today, I feel that there is no possible way for me to leave my family. My 11 yr old especially needs me and needs stability in his life. I feel like if alcoholics can recover thru meetings, so can I. I will keep trying. No meeting tonight, but I see counselor in a.m., and I have Celebrate Recovery in the eve.