My spouse left yesterday for a 4 day nursing conference in Boise. I'm alone w/the kids until Wednesday. The abandonment feelings began as soon as he walked out the door. My fear hit a new high. I cleaned, exercised alone for an hour and stayed out of the home and busy yesterday. I finally got home about 8 pm and started eating. ate cereal, cereal, cereal. Some candy. I ate. Then I purged and went to bed. I had 3 good days before yesterday. I was in contact w/my sponsor yesterday, but still, the e.d. won.
FOOD PLAN:
not following one as I haven't contacted food sponsor in days for a variety of reasons.
GRATITUDE JOURNAL:
forgiveness from my multitude of sins. A new start. A loving spouse.
E.D. BEHAVIORS:
restricting. Yesterday the only thing i ate was a granola bar for breakfast, another for lunch and about 5 chips. I drank some wine w/my friend. I binged and purge one time in the evening.
ATTENDANCE:
church closed. missed my Sunday OA meeting to spend time w/a friend and entertain my kids
PROGRESS IN CODEPENDENCY:
none
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