Yesterday, I did not use any e.d. behavior to cope. I ate, I drank, I exercised moderately. I ate some sugar, but didn't over do it. I woke up this morning looking bigger, but w/no scale, I don't know if I actually am or not. No church today. I did walk this am alone for 50 minutes. I have to go to the inlaws for dinner as it's Father's Day and Bo's dad invited us. The kids are highly allergic to cats, and there are at least 2 up there on a regualr basis. When one dies, it is replaced by another. Bo is aware of this, and aware that the boys ended up in the hospital for 3 days the last time they were in a home w/cats. I throw my hands up and declare powerlessness over this.
I have decided to mark what day of recovery and abstinence from e.d. behavior on my inner wrist with a silver sharpie pen. It reminds me of how far I've come, and it motivates me to be good so that I don't have to go back to 1.
FOOD PLAN:
Eat when hungry. Eat small to moderate amount of healthy food. If I want a sweet or some candy, I will allow it for now. I am avoiding trigger foods. Breakfast was peanuts, coffee.
Lunch was mixed bean soup with white meat of chicken, 1/2 slice cheese, an apple.
WORKING ON STEPS:
I spent a couple of hours reading God's word and recovery material. I contacted my sponsor this morning.
GRATITUDE JOURNAL:
I am grateful to have one whole good day behind me. I'm grateful that I'm not holding anger and resentment toward my dad for his tough love approach on the phone last month. I'm grateful I sleep at night. I'm grateful I don't have to work on a full time basis. Grateful for a spouse that tries things to help me.
E.D. BEHAVIORS:
none yesterday. So far today, none.
ATTENDANCE OF CHURCH, MEETINGS:
Went to a saturday Celebrate meeting even though I don't go regularly. No church this morning.
PROGRESS IN CODEPENDENCY:
none. still no boundaries.
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